Pondering about tomorrow

This post is regarding some thoughts about my future with baby and with myself . A friend of mine correctly pointed out today , that it had been approximately 7 years I completed my education and for not even a day I sat without working and hence this idea of being without work sounds scary to me for once. I am a person who wants to do something every now and then , learn something every now and then , get appreciation for her work and push herself to the limits every now and then . That's what satisfies me , that's what makes me happy at the end of the day.

But as baby is on the way , my priorities need to change , all my priorities should shift towards that small piece of life which I will be bringing to this world nothing else will be more important at least for sometime , till the time I can make him/her able enough to face things . I am just wondering will I loose myself on the way , will I become someone who I am afraid to become . I more or less like myself , the way I am I mean I like it the way things are right now . 

But some where I am sure as the little one will enter my life , things are gonna be much brighter . I will get to see more pure side of life , an honest smile , a lovely hug , some true tears and a lot more :) , it will be a different experience altogether . That's what discourages me to think of doing anything in parallel to that , I want to cherish and experience each and every moment of my motherhood . Work can always be started later on , Carrier can always be re kindled , but these small moments will not come back later .

Let's see me and my husband are working on that part as well , as what should life hold for me along with motherhood and I hope something gets finalized , I will have to be a little self motivated though for the things to work out . 

Hiii

He He , I know it's way too early for this post :) , but still I want to say hi to my little baby , who is way too little right now :P , some cms ... I guess :) , but yes still he is inside me  , getting nutrition from what i eat , getting affected from what I think . So I would say , he is more or less a big part of mine , whose care I need to take at any cost !! . 

So Hi , my little one , hope I am treating you well . I am trying , though I know at times I make some mistakes , I eat spicy food , I take some caffeine , I get stressed once in awhile , I know you don't like all this .. But believe me I am trying my best , you will understand once you are part of this big wide world how these infatuations take over you and you end up doing a few things which you know are not exactly right !! I will try and get over all these and give you best treatment now and forever , believe your caretaker , you are in good hands I would say :) . I am surrounded with beautiful people . How much they love you and are waiting soo much for you to be here , sometime I think even more than me ;). You will like it out here , it's just the start of journey , you and me will converse even more in coming months , I will give you updates how people around are making plans in there own way to welcome you :) and how I am planning to do stuff for you .. For now only this much , take care :)

Love you 

your caretaker ;)

Facing Unknown !!

As I know
Its gonna change
More I Hope
It will be for Good
As I know
I am gonna grow
My world will Shrink
More I hope
Most I have understood
I feel happy
I feel sad
I feel excited
Have I gone mad !!
My life will take a turn
Don't know whats on the road
I am trying to be prepared
To face the unknown

Change is on the way !!

For me pregnancy came as a surprise , a shock rather .. So much so , for first I thought may be we should not go ahead with it  . But me is me at the end of the day , the feeling of being a mother was also something that was seeming nicee :) . My husband ... well he just loves me , he left the decision on me , he held my hand and told me that he is with me no matter what I decide , he will be there to take care of me at each and every step of my pregnancy , he will be there to take care of me in case i want to just end it ... Well all n all ,I decided to go ahead and here I am :) now 7 weeks pregnant , faced a few issues till now , felt wonderful on some moments . Life is good on few days , its just too tiring and burdening sometimes . But I think that's how it is , it will be like this for next few months , they say its much better after first 3 months that time most body changes are done and you can have some really nice time with your baby :) .

Well this entry is to mention a really touching moment of my pregnancy till now .. I am facing some issues its not very smooth pregnancy for me , there is some bleeding happening , my doctor was all worried what could be the issue and I was also stressed at the same time , so stressed that I was not able to talk to people around me .. Surprising naa there was a time when I was thinking to put an end to this and now this became like most important thing for me :) ,

Alas !! God has made us ladies like this . But a stop came to all worries when my ultrasound happened yesterday 30 Nov 2015 . I was sooo happy to see heartbeat on that monitor , there is a heart beating in my belly can you believe it !! But yea its like a beautiful feeling as if I have achieved something in my life or I would say its like a door opened to something amazing on the way . 

Looking forward to more such beautiful moments :D :D