This post is regarding some thoughts about my future with baby and with myself . A friend of mine correctly pointed out today , that it had been approximately 7 years I completed my education and for not even a day I sat without working and hence this idea of being without work sounds scary to me for once. I am a person who wants to do something every now and then , learn something every now and then , get appreciation for her work and push herself to the limits every now and then . That's what satisfies me , that's what makes me happy at the end of the day.
But as baby is on the way , my priorities need to change , all my priorities should shift towards that small piece of life which I will be bringing to this world nothing else will be more important at least for sometime , till the time I can make him/her able enough to face things . I am just wondering will I loose myself on the way , will I become someone who I am afraid to become . I more or less like myself , the way I am I mean I like it the way things are right now .
But some where I am sure as the little one will enter my life , things are gonna be much brighter . I will get to see more pure side of life , an honest smile , a lovely hug , some true tears and a lot more :) , it will be a different experience altogether . That's what discourages me to think of doing anything in parallel to that , I want to cherish and experience each and every moment of my motherhood . Work can always be started later on , Carrier can always be re kindled , but these small moments will not come back later .
Let's see me and my husband are working on that part as well , as what should life hold for me along with motherhood and I hope something gets finalized , I will have to be a little self motivated though for the things to work out .
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